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Friday 2 December 2016

Is The BBC Under Government Controll?

BBC Complaints Told Me I Was Toxic?

Well That Fluffed Up My Tail-Feathers!!!

I got the same responce as Countess Mar; more or less the same word for word response. So I wrote a reply

I don’t believe I will get a level or concise response, and will think about making a complaint to Ofcom. Again I do not envisage getting much of a reply there either but feel you have to start somewhere.

http://www.meassociation.org.uk/2016/11/bbc-director-general-replies-to-countess-of-mar-about-coverage-of-the-fitnet-nhs-trial-24-november-2016/

Here is my reply and what do you think I should do next? Any point to it?

Ref: Cas-4074869-G7PJ8J


21st November 2016

Dear Brian Irvine,

I was deeply unhappy and saddened by your response to my complaint about the mis-information 1st November 2016 on the Joanna Gosling Show. The BBC is required to be accurate in reporting facts, impartial, and I would say, needs to be respectful to all.

To use the word Toxic in a letter about a medical condition in my view is unprofessional, and undeserving against a medical condition which is so devastating to so many, including very young children, I did take it personally.

Unfortunately I found no response to any of my questions raised, even though it stated that you had “reviewed the programme in light of your concern.” I raised many concerns!

You go on to say the discussion “was on the back of news that a therapy which successfully treats two thirds of children.” My complaint pointed out this was very misleading, not least because the trial had not even started. Furthermore the Dutch trial it is based upon, proved no long term benefit, and had no realistic harm definition, due to the known consequences of over activity in ME sufferers. 

My further point is that you have not included up-to-date research which would have made a big difference to the understanding of this disease and would allow the viewer a more balanced and unbiased view. You should have kept your selves informed and up to date with this illness.

You rely heavily on one particular group of people that the Science Media Centre (SMC) protects, and that have been discredited in their research and claims against other researchers, charities and suffers, the latter never getting an independent voice on national BBC Radio or News, only on some local BBC radio stations.

Listening to Steve Helwetts Media show’s interview with Fran Unsworth Deputy Head of the BBC News and on the board of the SMC, giving assurances the emerging government funding may cloud the transparency and threatens unbiased reporting, I am concerned in this case those blurrings of reporting; “knowing the government is listening”, is not as transparent at she would like?

My understanding of ME is a neurological, musculoskeletal condition with autonomic dysfunction, which causes abnormalities in the nervous system, autoimmune, cardiac, immunological and metabolomics systems putting the body in a dauer (meaning “endurance” “duration” “permanent” type of stasis (a period of state of inactivity) to survive) state. Causing problems: of a continual infections state, general inflammation, inflammatory of gut with connective tissue damage. If undiagnosed or treated in the wrong way for the individual, this can and does have life threatening consequences.

ME/CFS is now under review with NICE, taking into account the new and fast changing understanding of this multisystem chronic condition.

Points Raised from your reply to my concerns:
1.      The program never mentioned the discredited PACE trial of this type of treatment and should have been used pivotal in the debate. It was published in 2011 and was hailed by the SMC and the UK media in general as successful, also funded by the National Institute for Health and Research and Department of Work and Pensions. It was discredited and could have shown the viewers more balance. None of the patient’s views or experiences of this trial; to my knowledge have been actively sought. Unfounded and exaggerated accusations towards severely ill patients have been made by those involved directly or indirectly with the trial, and most if not all have been unfounded. One such patient at great personal health and cost obtained the raw data from the PACE trial through a reviling court case, where the judge dismissed the many dispersion's by the two standing against the data release. The re-analysis by independent statisticians found the data to be fraudulent and that instead of the claimed recovery figure of 22% after CBT and GET, the actual figures were only 7% for CBT and 4% for GET. So therefore the PACE trial was null. This bears direct evidence for parents to base their informed opinion on, for the FitnetNHS trial, which seems to be more or less the same treatment.

2.      The findings of the Dutch study itself, which was quoted by Professor Crawley was inaccurate (66% of participants were said to be “cured”) because it grossly exaggerated and mis-represented the findings of its small trial (Professor Crawley dismisses other scientific provable studies, as irrelevant due to their size). This study forms the basis of evidence of efficacy, so should have been questioned. They purported there was a significant difference in school attendance at six months between CBT and usual care (75% vs 16%). They did not make it clear that children who stay at home to receive treatment are at a big advantage, as travelling and going to hospital can make ME sufferers relapse. The ultimate findings showed no difference at 2 year follow-up. The presenter did not question this and failed in her duty to mention the “recovery” were virtually the same as for the entry criteria into the trial. The two principal investigators of the PACE trial professors White and Chalder commented on that fact “recovery” criteria was liberal and “not stringent”, a point that patients pointed out on the PACE trial and were called vexatious. 

3.      Behavioural theories play a heavy part in Professors Crawley’s Protocol. This theory has been discredited and deflated to the point of not applicable by most in the medical community. This theory was also applied to the Gulf War veterans, who largely suffer the same symptoms, and in the beginning were treated the same way. The implications of the protocol weigh heavily on the mothers parenting style. In this regard the Dutch protocol calls into question “The fact that long term recovery was negatively associated with maternal focus on bodily symptoms could be seen as an indication that during treatment the influence of this specific predictor had not been adequately addressed. And goes on to say a “separate programme for the mother is needed”. This I find rather strange as the trial is child led, by them being involved and reporting on their symptoms? Would this emphasis be acceptable for other neurological conditions or other autoimmune illnesses?


4.      SMILE Trial was never brought up in the conversations, though this is based on the same principles of the FitNetNHS trial. Yet again Crawley weighed heavily on the intervention of mothers and never released the data to show evidence, just alluded to its outcome, that mothers were responsible for noncompliance. What is more probable is that the children were no longer able to take part. The harms, just a small mention of one child and one mother going to hospital, the information however ebbs and flows or gets taken down from the internet. This trial was based on the controversial Lightning Process. This withheld information could have helped mothers like me, to make a more informed choice.

5.      The protocol leaves the option open to question the mother's nurturing style. This should have been robustly questioned in the interview.  Why is the necessity of this over bearing importance on the mother in a curative treatment throughout her trials, when the child has a physiological illness and is why I mentioned Karina Hansen. As Mary Jane Willows (AYME) works closely with Professor Crawley and for Children and their families who have been persecuted in this way, I am very surprised this approach has been acceptable to both of them.

6.      You mention Lizzie Horgan; who I believe was on the Woman’s Hour program some time back, again with Professor Crawley, and brings into focus my main point. Lizzie is learning to live with a debilitating illness, she is not recovered. I would say Lizzie is a level headed individual who is resilient and a great advocate for the ME community.

7.      Diagnosis for this trial: Professor Crawley says is based on the NICE guidelines, but she omits the cardinal characteristic of Post-Exertional Malaise (PEM). This error by stealth has now transformed their prospective cohort into fatigue only. This will lead to confusion and make the findings null and void to ME sufferers. This does not give clarity to doctors, social workers, educators, or parent/carers and can lead to great harm.


8.      You mention Jane Colby; she was given a room with others talking and laughing in the background, which must have been very distracting to talk over as it was to listen to. I found that very disrespectful to a lady who tirelessly works to impart the truth to schools about this complex illness and gain some proper treatment for children with ME.


9.      There should have been another researcher or medical expert that could have given a balance to the debate. Dr Speight unlike Professor Crawley has helped many severely ill children with ME and it would have been most helpful to hear his views on this matter. Doctor Speight has given many talks on the subject of children with ME and was part of the group for the International Consensus Criteria, which is highly regarded by researchers in the ME field. He also understands the importance of PEM.

There are many more researchers in the UK such as Professor Newton, Professor Malcolm Hooper, Professor J Edwards (his open letter about the email sent by Professor Holgate shows how the disregard to ME patients, other charities and researchers, perpetrates through some medical circles, not however protected by SMC), Professor J English, to name a few. Unfortunately they have been hampered by many in the SMC, who have chosen not to report on their findings and on the biomedical pathology presented at the International Association at Fort Lauderdale October 2016

It would seem Professor Holgate's interventions through, amongst other measures, email against young researchers such as Keith Geraghty goes unnoticed. His treatment by some of those involved in the MEGA study has been disparaging over the last few years and you would have assumed a young researcher would have been actively sought and supported by those in the ME field. His efforts have been welcomed by the ME/CFS community and most charities.

10.  You say that the BBC cannot ignore stories like this, however you did ignore the bigger story of the PACE trial going to court and that outcome, and this shows a great deal of bias in your reporting. You also have neglected to report on the British Government becoming the first ever to be investigated by the United Nations for disabled human rights abuses. That it has condemned the “functional” assessments used by the DWP that were developed by the Wessley School using ME sufferers on the PACE trial biopsychosocial model.

11.  You never covered the question of not including the Karina Hansen story that broke at the same time as Professor Crawley came on the show? Neither did you address Sophia Mirza (whose autopsy showed physical problems), Emily Collingridge or Naomi Whittington and it has been brought to my attention of the court case of Ean Proctor. These four young women and young man, are worthy of a mention and to question treatment to illustrate the problems of over emphasising on the mothers input, and the problems that Tymes Trust deal with. They also prove what can happen if you push your body too hard.

12.  However it was the website references that you gave as evidence of a broad range of CFS/ME research that had me the most perplexed. It had just one biomedical study of old, one that show the difficulties that all research faces when trials go wrong, and two that show, the now discredited information about the difficulties the ME community possess towards researchers, which should be amended with some urgency. This I do not consider a balanced or unbiased view:

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-31644618 One story to show biomedical research from 2015 which has moved on considerably and had very little relevance to Dr Crawley’s study. Furthermore, it was not an interview with the researcher herself and was given very little space, though I note you have a remark by Professor White who failed to mention his own study which pointed to the trouble sufferers have when traveling with increase of inflammation? Though I am no expert, I do feel this was relevant to Dr Crawley trial as I mentioned earlier about the travel:

Journal of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Vol. 12(2) 2004 http://www.haworthpress.com/web/JCFS  2004 by The Haworth Press, Inc. All rights reserved. Digital Object Identifier: 10.1300/J092v12n02_06

we found elevated concentrations of plasma transforming growth factor beta (TGF-ß), even before exercise, in subjects with CFS (median (IQR) of 904 (182-1072) pg/ml) versus controls (median (IQR) of 50 (45-68) pg/ml) (P < .001). Traveling from home to the hospital significantly elevated TGF-ß concentrations from a resting median (IQR) concentration of 1161 (130-1246) pg/ml to a median (IQR) concentration of 1364 (1155-1768) pg/ml (P < .02). There was also a sustained increase in plasma tumor necrosis factor alpha (TNF-cc) after exercise in CFS patients, but not in controls (P = .004 for the area under the curve), although traveling had no such effect. CD3, CD4 and HLA DR-expressing lymphocyte counts were lower in CFS patientshttp://www.tandfonline.com/doi/abs/10.1300/J092v12n02_06



One about contamination and a retraction of the paper in 2011. I have no idea why you have given this as evidence of unbiased reporting,  as again it was not an interview and this debate again has moved on. Though if you had debated the PACE trial, which had similar problems I could have understood its inclusion. http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-15017660

You have never mentioned one of the many important papers and would suggest how wrong it would be to do any form of extended or keep going life style. http://www.openmedicinefoundation.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/08/Naviaux-PNAS-CFS-Metabolomics-2016.pdf  


Maureen Hanson:

Then there is all the work Fluge and Mella have been doing since 2011

The one about Tom Fieldings story that was given to him from the Science Media Centre, should have never been included. Dr Crawley admitted in a radio broadcast in July 2011 that she had not received explicit death threats but had misinterpreted one email to constitute a death threat and that her local police force had taken no action. Including this I find insulting to me personally, and to the ME community in general. http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/science-environment-14326514

These allegations were unfounded and should never be used against people trying to get to the hidden truth as regards to their very debilitating illness. In October 2016 they were dismissed by the judge at the First tier tribunal as “Without foundation” and “wild speculation”.  These were the same people that have continually been part of your news with regards to ME/CFS.  This type of tactic is used time and time again against all but a few that are protected by the SMC . I fail to see the relevance of the evidence you gave me of your unbiased interviews. To use the word Toxic in relation to any person, researcher or association is unprofessional and a strange term to use. It is unforgivable to use it when you know it to be untrue!

The last one was of the group of people you have reported on throughout your listings given and is very confusing. No coverage was given to any other professional with just a link to Prof Sir Liam Donaldson who states it is a “biomedical condition” but you have to press on the link which rather proves my point about your biased reporting? None of these are interviews or proper debates.

This was again an article by “By James Gallagher” and I think it would have been more appropriate if you had put in his: “The Inflamed Mind” BBC radio 4 program, can your immune system make you psychotic, as it seems to me this has more relevance to ME/CFS - as it would seem research is gaining more information and understanding on ME, it is looking more likely to be an inflammatory, autoimmune, and metabolic, dysregulation affecting the heart, putting the body in a dauer state. It saddens me our researchers have been held back by funding and more importantly support and less ridicule from the SMC is needed to carry these research forward in this country.

13.  To openly say that the FitNetNHS trial promise recovery is in breach of many medical codes of conduct and to mislead patients by promising a cure when there is no such certainty, is in breach of the General Medical Council Regulations as set out in “Good Medical Practice” (2006) which was brought to my attention by the Countess of  Mar.

“Providing and publishing information about your services-paragraphs 60-62
60. If you publish information about your medical services, you must make sure the information is: factual and verifiable
61. You must not make unjustifiable claims about the quality or outcomes of your services in any information you provide to patients. It must not offer guarantees of cures”

This concludes my response to your points over my concerns



I would like to say why this matter is of the deepest concern to me. I am a mother of a 11 Year old boy who wakes up every morning as though lead fills his veins, the headaches are intense, nose bleeds, high and low blood pressure and heart rate, can black out when he sits up or standing still too long, unable to see, cognitive dysfunction so bad that he forgets his name or where he is. In short he is in so much pain and lack of cognition he has no life to speak of. He was 8 when he was rushed to hospital; no scans were performed and not many investigations. They ran through his history and when it became apparent that he had a virus of some sort, they just gave a diagnosis of somatisation/CFS.

After two years of Cognitive Behaviour Therapy, where I was put under immense scrutiny and pressure for my son to recover and my son was told no one will take any notice of his symptoms, my son became withdrawn. I would say after his treatment by ill-informed medical professionals, his strength of character is immense, because he took his treatment on the chin. He never spoke of his increasing pain; he learnt to cope with it. This we found out later should have been taken seriously, and will possibly have lifelong consequences as it was a warning of things going wrong. ME, by the World Health Organisation is recognised as neurological disorder. Step back and think how this must feel for both him and me.

Our restraint and dignity I would suggest, far outweighs the behaviour of the doctors and researchers, SMC, government, MRC and the BBC that insist this is more a matter of mind over body.

He also had Graded Exercise Therapy, which to me in the beginning made perfect sense; you just have to gently get your body back into the swing of life, like any other illness.  But if you read up on sepsis, meningitis, diabetes, the symptoms and the way the heart is involved are connected. Not all illness give way to recovery. Your information does form doctors', educators', social workers' and people in general's understanding and directly influences people’s perceptions, as shown in the links you gave me.

We later found out that he had post orthostatic tachycardia syndrome (PoTS), undiagnosed from the very start and one of the 1986 ME diagnosis criteria by Dr Ramsey? Yet many doctors do not look out for or understand this when suspecting ME/CFS. However, this is not on the Oxford Criteria. If you look up PoTS on the NHS web site choices, you will find a connection to CFS. This is never mentioned by Professor Crawley? NICE guidelines also stipulate a heart monitor should be worn when exercising, I do not think Professor Crawley does this either and I would say this is a worry.

We also found my son was a Coeliac suffer, his reading for the protein was very high and as yet is not coming down enough to be measured on his blood tests. This would have done great harm to my son’s body and he has now grown 6cm in the last couple of months, showing his body was effectively being starved of nutrients.

To complain about these misdiagnoses and our treatment; I have been informed would put me under threat, mothers are accused of Munchausen by proxy. We cannot learn from these types of errors if we do not take account of mistakes. Reading the protocol of the FitnetNHS trial, and listening to Professor Crawley, it is hardly surprising mothers get blamed for their children not recovering. I would say that people misunderstand the seriousness and disability of ME. Over 200 families have gone through this with very sick children, who have been accused, and none have been found guilty. Yet no one ever looks into the behaviour of professionals as to why this happens to innocent families fighting against a chronic illness. Social services or education authorities are left making decisions with not all facts being put forward on the media of the medical understanding, and this why I mentioned Karina Hansen and Sophia. The public should be made aware of this.

Since Professor Crawley made her rounds on the BBC media circuit, many mothers have been harassed to send their children to school and several have been reported to the social services, this I feel is a direct response to your biased media coverage. If you look on the internet for information from the BBC it is clear what message you send out. The reporting is one sided and the truth scilenced.

As a mother you are not safeguarded and it would seem have no rights above the Doctors, educators, social services concerns over safeguarding your child, therefore no balance of facts. If the Doctor you are under does not fully understand your child with ME, and they write to the school stating your child can attend school for 5 hours a week, you as a parent have to comply. If you do not send your child to school for those five hours a week on a regular basis; as happens with children that are fighting this illness, then the school have a duty of care to inform the attendance officer no matter how they may feel about that child’s health or wellbeing. The attendance officer then brings in the school nurse and the social services and because of the misinformation and wrong impression of ME, they then put the child on a protection order. This whole process can take as little as 30 days. The police can break your door down and forcefully take your child away, without you being aware of any safeguarding issue.

Even if the mother has been proven not guilty by a court of law, most of the time the child is harmed by the process and foster careers not understanding this chronic illness, and in some cases they never recover. No one, it would seem, cares to look through the cases to find if the same doctors are making these mistakes many times with one particular illness. Neither do they review cases and make sure the child recovers, with some children getting lost in the system forever.

I hope the above information makes it clear why you should take the time to fully investigate, and that you have the facts, and I would respectfully ask you to make amends. To give unbiased and a balance to the behavioural interventions that you have promoted, and provide the same platform you offered Professor Crawley to those that have worked hard, and tirelessly to provide grounded and provable evidence of the biomedical problems and aetiology that is now emerging.

More importantly allow people who suffer a voice and not ridicule.



Kind Regards



Tina Rodwell

Monday 8 August 2016

My ME Hero - Happy with a Nerf gun

When You Think It Is Safe To Pick Up The Washing
It Is Now!!

My solitude is broken by the yelp of a stubbed toe a ‘Bloody Hell’ and stomping of a rushed wakening. I sip the last of my coffee and take a deep breath and brace myself.

I wonder - as I hear his mobile go off, if I should just sit here and then I giggle at the ‘Shit’ that sharply punctures my solitude bubble, then expletives follow robustly as I hear the clank of the phone on porcelain. I take a deep breath and close my eyes and hope ‘please let it be on the outside and not inside the pan’. As there are no more blaspheming or stomping or shouts for mum, I think it is safe to come out of the office, my bright room at the top of our house. I look on the breezy yet warm scene out of the window at the waving corn and remember past summer holidays of days out, seaside, farms and zoo’s and wonder how this child of mine ever made it to be a man.

‘Mum’ He shouts as he runs downstairs and into the kitchen. ‘Got it’ he stomps back upstairs. ‘Mum, mum!’
‘I’m in the office’ He pokes his ruffled head through the door.
‘Anything you want us to take to nana and granddads?’
‘Nope, was that Rose on the phone?’
‘Yep, she’s on her way home. I’ll have breakfast and then we will get going.’
Front door opens and a whirlwind zips through the house, hairbrush, makeup and perfume are applied with expert hands and I remember the feel of the little hands that used to grab mine.

They both pounce on their little brother’s bed who squeals in delight and they make fun of his breaking voice.
‘You alright’ I can hear their regret and their guilt.
‘Yep, what time are you coming home?’ Angus asks. They look across at me.
‘They will be gone all day love and you need to keep your head back, you have already had two nose bleeds this morning.’

Nothing else is said and soon the door slams and I ring my mum and dad to say they are on their way. The excitement in my parent’s voice thrills and their sadness touches me. They ask how Angus is and we chat a little, and I miss them. I remember my little hand in my dad’s strong hand, how he used to squeeze mine to reassure me.

I go to take Angus’s heart rate and it hits the roof as he sits up. He squeezes my hand and I feel his warmth and support.
‘It’s alright mum, I don’t mind.’ He reassures me, as he lies back down before he passes out. ‘We have plenty to do. Fancy a shooting match with the nerf guns.’ I smile and nod as I pick up some washing from the floor. I hear the whistle of the soft pellet before I feel the sting and I laugh as I pick up the hidden self-loading toy gun and shoot around him with the fifteen shots.
I look at his big broad smile and I know we have to make the best of life we have. I just wish this is not all we have though and one day and one day soon, that smile would be able to shine once again in a free and easy time.

25,000 children in the UK with ME and their families have to face life like this. Any chronic illness needs support and not all disabilities are wheelchair users.

Friday 4 March 2016

Of All The Silly Things

Of All The Silly Things

Of all the silly things they get you to do, bouncing on a ball while you’re eating your lunch has to be the most bizarre! Concentrating on your inner core, chewing while laughing has to be worth more than just an orange on your activity sheet?

How can I tell my teenage girl these people know what they are doing? That our government have our best interests at heart? It is blindingly obvious they do not! These silly ideas may look good written down on a sheet of paper, fooling people it will make them better, but in practice it is life threatening and I do wonder if they had a health and safety check on it. Before you all roll your eyes and let out the exasperated steam of boredom. Bouncing on a ball while eating, honestly, it doesn’t take Einstein to work out the equation for the consequences to that one.

You may ask me why we keep listening to them. I’ve asked myself that many times. You have to remember we are very desperate and we thought we were going to professionals in their field, not a load of monkeys wanting to enjoy a tea party, paid for by government! I’m not bitter, just gob smacked at the systemic stupidity!

It’s not the first time we have been forced into activities that we don’t understand the benefit of. There was that time they told me to get my daughter interested in the world around her. To get her to move around the house, which they considered was the first step to reengage with the world. You do this by doing the housework? They said it constituted an orange on the scale of energy needed. They smiled at us as though we could not understand the concept, and just needed to get on with it and they would be proved correct.

First issue I have with this is; housework – to get you interested in the world around you, really? My daughter does not have OCD so what joy of doing daily necessities would she derive from cleaning? OCD does figure in ME apparently, I suppose it depends in which area of your brain that has been affected; after all it is a neurological disease. They have always known it affects your brain, but do they understand the brain? That’s the question, from my experience, no they do not! Only recently some researchers have devised the right techniques to produce the imagery of damage caused by ME. Not all hospitals have the right equipment though and then you have to have the right person to understand the imagery.

Anyhow, for most young; bordering on teenagers would not reengage in the world around them by housework. I have to admit housework turns me off in life and against most of my family. I’ve seen to many mould festering plates and smelly football socks.

Dust and chemicals are known to affect ME sufferers, so I really don’t understand this, one little bit. I did start to wonder about the clinic we were attending. The person telling me how good this would be for my daughter looked more of a party animal than a home bird; I don’t think she would be too impressed if she was given this to try, I think she would look as stunned at the suggestion as we were.
Secondly they obviously did not watch “Trust Me, I’m a Doctor” out of all the gym activities housework burnt the most energy. The energy that would be used the most would be indignation though! And this is never taken into account! I think I would feel belittled and indignant if it was offered to me as part of the treatment for a disease that offers more pain than when you have run a full marathon, by just going downstairs! When energy is in short supply, do you really want to waste it on housework!

Rosa had always been brilliant at helping me out around the house. As a treat on a Saturday we would go out shopping, as a way of me saying thank you for all her help. The sadness of this particular suggestion brought home with a sledge hammer, how bad things had got and how much M.E had taken from our lives as a family. Going into town was a weekly treat, window shopping and then coffee and cake. Somehow these people are blinkered, and don’t understand people or their lives.

She also has a dust allergy and would sneeze; I wonder how much energy it takes to sneeze? I smile at the image of their reactive faces if I wrote that down on her daily activity sheet? I would say five sneezes would constitute a red activity. I wonder how that constant allergy would affect her body though.

I know it’s not for the fact she wanted to withdraw from the world, I know my daughter, but that she is simply too unwell. They insisted though, that it was the same for all CFS patients, it was part of the illness this deconditioning malarkey. I don’t buy it, but they should know better and in the beginning I was not listening to the people who had been through the system before us. The professionals had clouded my judgement about them. We were different and how could movement, talking, enjoying life make you ill? If you are happy and look to the future, it stands to reason that you will be OK. Little did I know back then!

Threading beads was another activity and when Rosa, then 10 asked what the point to that was, we got a reaction, which enthused the psychiatrist to write franticly down in her notes. We looked at each other with a silent conversation carried through widening eyes and wobbly eyebrows. These conversations normally take place when we meet with the medical team. We would discuss afterwards what a criminal psychologist would make of them all.

Let me just say it again, threading large wooden beads on a shoelace? When you’re ten? Slightly demoralising? Belittling? This is the treatment we deserve for a totally knackered body, immune system and every other system within your body? Even if they were to suggest making jewellery; which I did think of, it would not work. Threading beads sound innocuous but, you have to think and manipulate kinetically, this would take two energy factors, and yes, it gets that basic. 

Colouring books came next. The type that are used for stressed people. It is to put you in a hypnotic state and has been proved to help with brain flow, brain mapping and stress. So we gave it a go. The thing they just don’t get, is the pain and stress on joints when you are trying to do anything when you have M.E! A lot of M.E sufferers have hypermobile joints that hurt, and when you have a disease that also attaches them, this pain is doubled. After an activity, whether you enjoy it or not, you are left with more stress and energy burnt. They don’t listen or look at the individual they just give you silly things to try that sound half reasonable, hoping you will go away and get better. If you don’t agree with them and don’t get better then they start throwing accusations around.

Now most of these things are girly but friends of mine that have boys with ME are treated the same. Now don’t get me wrong I’m all for equality but it don’t work does it?
Doing crosswords and word searches was the next thing. This was suggested at the time Rosa could hardly see most days, she was dizzy and felt sick. Cognitively she found it difficult and this is one I never tried with her. Again it is to do with the brain and its function with lactic acid eroding away the brain cells.

So when they suggested the exercise ball, I didn’t think anything of it. I did question eating while you were on the ball, but they insisted that it would take Rosia’s mind of the pain of exercise, to help with her avoidance. It was useless to say that her reluctance was not due to her not wanting to exercise and that she was aware that new exercises brings aches at first; she was a gymnast. They just would not believe she would suffer the next week or so that pain would increase and possibly leave her bed-bound.

Well it made us giggle; there we were rotating gently as we made sure our posture was correct so that our inner core was correctly engaged, while eating a chicken sandwich. We tried not to laugh. When Rosia reached across to put her plate on the side of the coffee table, she had over reached and cramp had set in. Cramp is a constant problem for her muscles. The ball slipped and piece of chicken had got stuck in the back of her throat.

After I had performed the Heineken manoeuvre, she had been sick and I had given her pain relief, I vowed I would not listen to any more silly ideas. I knew however, they had the power to take everything away from us and make our lives more miserable then it was already. That to have the letters to the school to enable Rosa to be home tutored, so that she reaches her goal of becoming a vet we needed to keep the silly idiots on our side. You have no choice but to try!

She was bright, she was breezy, she was incredibly silly, but she was all we have, so we sat there with our eager faces on, in our multi disciplinary group meeting with our engaging persona, not daring to look at each other.

“Well Rosa the last time we met we discussed your efforts to get back to normal life how did you get on?”
Eager eyes looked over to her, I held my breath.

“Well it made me wonder?” They all lent in for the revelation, the breakthrough they had all been waiting for, she paused longer for effect. “About your health and safety record! Because eating while on an unstable surface is not the right thing to be telling your patients.” Their faces dropped into expressionless professionals, “however the trip to hospital” again she paused to draw out the full impact. “To stabilise my condition was worth it, I met a rather thoughtful and considerate junior doctor, who has found I have PoTS, Hypermobile joints and a problem with my heart, alongside my M.E.”

Their faces were blank, none of them believing what had just happened. M.E is defiantly the chronic illness that just keeps on giving.

The End

Emotions have been hijacked as propaganda to show M.E sufferers in a very disparaging way. What they forget to mention is that laughter, happiness and excitement are all activities and can change the chemicals in the brain, they also have an impact on the energy of a person with M.E. Sufferers know these emotions affect them, just as much as being sad at your predicament and anxiety that comes calling for no good reason and out of the blue.

A multi-disciplinary team must mean that, and it must be led by medical factors firstly and psychiatry secondly if psychiatry is needed at all. Your physical health has a direct bearing on your emotions.

David Tuller, a public health journalist found flaws in the trial which meant it should never have been published:


This was taken from the EDHS website:

A few patients diagnosed with somation/CFS/ME could have Ehler-Danlos Syndrome (a connective tissue disorder)
 http://www.edhs.info/#!symptoms/c1qvq
Patients who truly have Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME) do not benefit from (and could be harmed by) inappropriate exercise.  Exercise therapies can leave ME patients far more severely ill than they were before and sometimes in need of emergency care.  ME patients that are able to rest adequately in the early stages of the illness have the best prognosis. ME patients must strictly avoid overexertion to have any quality of life.

Taken from the Voices from the shadows:
http://voicesfromtheshadowsfilm.co.uk/me-cfs-and-research/

The dominant view promoted by the UK Government through its National Health Service, Medical Research Council and the Science Media Centre, has long been that although ME/CFS might initially be caused by a virus, accident or stress, the long lasting debilitating illness these patients suffer is, they say, merely the result of physical de-conditioning caused by a fear of activity or exercise and over-attention to symptoms. This claim ignores the large and growing body of research demonstrating a severe neuro-immune physical illness. It has had devastating consequences for patients as well as for doctors and researchers supporting a physical understanding of the illness who have been threatened with losing their jobs and in some cases have lost their jobs. An explanation of these contrasting views can be found in “Chronic fatigue syndrome: Harvey and Wessely’s (bio)psychosocial model versus a bio(psychosocial) model based on inflammatory and oxidative and nitrosative stress pathways” by Michael Maes and Frank NM Twisk at www.biomedcentral.com
For many years several million pounds worth of MRC research funding for ME/CFS has been allocated to studies run by psychiatrists and psychologists examining the usefulness of different combinations of management programmes more appropriate for behavioural and psychological conditions. These are cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT), which was  originally developed to treat depression, and graded exercise therapy (GET) which is also considered to be a valuable treatment for depression and de-conditioning. These ‘treatments’ for ME are actually management programmes. They are used extensively to support patients receiving medical treatment for illnesses such as cancer, whereas in ME/CFS these behavioural management programmes are being used as a substitute for proper medical treatment. Alarmingly these recommended ‘treatments’, particularly GET, has been found to exacerbate illness and increase disability in many ME patients, sometimes resulting in lifelong total incapacity. (Further reading can be found here: www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov & www.iacfsme.org) There is a video from the ‘FDA: Development of safe and effective Drug Therapies for CFS and ME’ workshop with Prof Chris Snell an exercise physiologist talking about the objective measures that can be used to assess patients severe disability. Here on Day 2 Panel 3 



Lactic Acid and the brain

Shungu believes the increased lactate levels he has twice found in the brains of ME/CFS patients may result from reduced oxygen levels. He believes increased oxidative stress may release substances called isoprostanes which restrict the blood vessels in the brain. Those constricted blood vessels result in low oxygen levels (hypoxia), anaerobic energy production and the release of lactate.
In a small study Baraniuk subsequently tied increased brain lactate levels in Gulf War Syndrome to reduced cognition.  A subset of GWS patients with increased brain lactate levels prior to exercise demonstrated significantly reduced cognition after exercise. Baraniuk attributed the cognitive decline to the brains inability to utilize the lactate produced by the muscles during exercise.  The inability to use the energy resource that lactate presented resulted in the brain using anaerobic metabolism to try and meet its needs.


In PoTS, for some reason the autonomic nervous system doesn't function properly. There's a drop in blood supply to the heart and brain when you become upright.
In an attempt to compensate for this, the heart races and the body produces lots of the hormone noradrenaline (one of the hormones that prepares you for "fight or flight").

So what happens to people with oxygen levels that are taken from their brain for many reasons?

Friday 26 February 2016

Playing Football with the Dog

Playing Football With The Dog


I miss my son when I play football with the dog. I can still hear the laughter and the growl as boy versus small terrier took place. I let my mind take me back to those moments in time. As I wind my way around the garden, with my son’s image following me. Before I could control those images of time that has passed, a soft sadness wrapped itself as I took a look at the landscape I once loved and enjoyed.

I turned sharply to avoid the capture from the frenzied ball of fluff, when I slipped on the freshly made mud, as it splattered up my face, my foot sliced open the sludgy earth and I knew I had to make ready for the squidgy impact. I started to laugh and was still chuckling, impressed that I managed to evade complete coverage. But that joyous echo of fun and calamity was hollow and empty. I stood up slightly stiffly, what a silly thing to do and such a mess to get yourself in. Slightly bruised in ego and thigh, I looked up to my son’s room and saw a shadow in the window.
In those webbed and filtered moments my son and I had spent together, spinning a dazzling history, I could hear what once would have been his sarcastic retort at my incompetence to stay on my feet. The shadow disappeared and Amber had got over enthusiastic, bouncing up and down splattering mud and barking at the ball. I wanted to retreat into the house, having fun with free movement just seemed so wrong.

Amber had taught my son how to tackle with finesses of speed, with the agility that a professional footballer would be proud of; he had shown great promise and had been spotted by a local team coach, before tragedy struck. My son’s presence was on every blade of grass, I could no longer stand the emptiness. Amber sat down and looked at me with her crooked cropped face; note to self, let the dog groomer do her job!

That little dog had more empathy and understanding than most of the medical team we had met. They seem to be willing to let my son just fester in pain with no real understating of why. I attentively start to move and look at the mud pack on the side of my leg. Perhaps that was a little unkind, in reality because of the history of ME they were wrongly informed by those that did know better, but out of profit and gain promoted that it was just a case of getting your mind over the fact your body was or had been ill. You try to say otherwise you are met with a caustic reaction. Mental health in this country is being let down. Explore the physical and you are half way to healing the mind. Addicts throughout the ages have taught us that. Understand the withdrawal and how that has an effect on the chemical changes in the brain, and you can make miracles happen.

I breathe in deeply as I pass all the medals in the porch and touched them with the sadness I felt. I must get lunch I sighed, so I went to clean myself up. It was no good; the mud was so extreme I’d have to have another shower. I sighed with a downward glance as Amber wagged her tail up at me. The sloppy sucking motion of the tunic I had been wearing clung to me as though it did not want to let go, and enjoyed covering me more with the gooey stuff. Amber was now waiting in the spot where the water falls in the shower. I looked at her as she turned her back to me and water stared to power wash her body. I rolled my eyes as Amber tried to bite the flowing water, but as soon as I stepped in she calmly waited for the soap.

Disasters come in differing forms, for different people, don’t you think? Someone’s disaster is another’s slight inconvenience. One person’s pains are another’s insignificant discomfort; we all see things differently and cope in differing ways. Most days I can put the past where it belongs, shut it away and look to the here and now as researchers don’t know what my son’s future holds, I have learnt not to look too far ahead. But bad days start with those times in my life when what used to be insignificant and such a part of life you rarely thought about them. They are now the ones I long for, those insignificant happenings have become those which mean the world to have back, as my everyday reality. I smile as Amber lies under the radiator to dry herself. While I dry myself down and change my clothes.

With determination I put on the radio and clean the area to prepare the food, my hair still wet and limp. A couple of years ago I would never have dreamed of letting my hair look so un-kept and free. But who was here to see or care.

Once a great joy of mine, I would indulge myself in preparing a meal that would be eaten with gusto, each bite swallowed without a chew, I would scold him and he would shrug his shoulders. Indigestion was nothing to be afraid of, just a burp to resolve the discomfort. Coeiliac is part of the autoimmune picture I try to paint with eloquence to educate the people I know, but end up painting unsightly blobs they don’t understand. With one autoimmune inconvenience came more, with his ME we have found many lurking in his tortured body.

I become aware of the conversation between interviewer and promoting psychologist, the kind and friendly way she spoke, that put across the plight of these poor people and how they could simply improve function by moving. I could hear the presenter of the program taking the bait, of just need to re-educate your body back to health. The specialist that was reportedly the expert with regards to ME, was as sweet as acid on an open cut, in her narrative.

One vertebrae at a time, prickled with the dismay of it all. I shouted at the radio, “their bodies produce twenty times the amount of acid in their muscles than normal people, you should know that! Lactic acid causes damage to their brain, don’t you know!” But they didn’t hear. Somehow the science is not getting through. Mental health being a buzz word at the moment, “we are all mental, all dealing with problems in life. Few of them can be resolved by thinking that the world is fine and dandy.  You need to physically resolve the issues and kind people to support you while you deal with  the shit that is left!” The words bounced off the walls.

I remember reading the psycholobabble when my son was first diagnosed. These people with the power to control everything to do with ME astound me! The lengths they would go to and the harassment they give out. How they were allowed to do that and how stupid they are.

Coeliac was to do with modern day demons they explained. This explanation fed into our, “bless these poor unfortunates” reasoning of mental health; they convinced crowds of doctors and politicians, who were only happy to comply. Don’t bother doing test on these poor people, you will be feeding into their belief system that they are truly ill? Researchers should understand the damage they are doing to these poor people, giving them reason to stay ill instead of working to be well! Everything to do with your body can be controlled by your mind, don’t you know, strong mind and stiff upper lip, is all they need!

I am sure that if they said that broken bones could be healed by the patient’s own determination, our government and the NICE people would wholeheartedly believe them. We all like to think we are in control and to blame lesser mortals who don’t happen to get better, as if it was their own weak will that was to blame!

I enter my son’s room, just as he flings into flight landing on the bed making a duvet angel. My stunned face looks down on a face of a zombie like child, who just can’t help himself but to live and get the most enjoyment out of life he can.

Mind body continuum does not figure in his life, psychosomatic behaviour is nothing to him, control over his world not given a thought; just the need to live life to the fullest he can, whenever and however his able. You have to admire him.

I thought, as I put down his plate and sipped from my coffee, and looked upon his smile from his grey green face; if it was a matter of your mind controlling your illness, therefore your body, he would be fighting fit!

The End




The above story is a work of fiction, but Amber plays herself. What kicked off the story was the quote from some of the papers I have read about the school of thought that kicked off the notion ME was not a neurological disease, but a culture bound syndrome? These little nuggets are real tell-tale signs of how the man thinks. It’s a bit like reading about Cinderella not being able to go to the ball, because the stepmother has a plan.

A quote from Weesley:
"The epidemiology of environmental illness is reminiscent of the difficulties encountered in distinguishing between the epidemiology of myalgic encephalomyelitis (ME), a belief, and chronic fatigue syndrome, an operationally?defined syndrome...These patient populations recruited from the environmental subculture are a subgroup of patients who can be expected to show unusually strong beliefs about the nature of their symptoms, associated with a high percentage of psychiatric disorder...These total allergy syndromes are akin to culture?bound syndromes afflicting modern developed societies where sufferers from unexplained symptoms no longer see themselves as possessed by devils or spirits but instead by gases, toxins and viruses."LM Howard, S Wessely. Clinical and Experimental Allergy 1995:25:503?514"


Weesley should tell that to my sons Villi!! My son was diagnosed as having Somation disorder and was never checked for Ceoliac disease, because the medical profession still believe when they suspect CFS, it is somation and no testing should be done? The sad thing is Wessley is still believed even though the evidence has always been there that ME is a Chronic neurological illness, but there again Donald Trump is still sounding off; its funny old world.

Ceoliacs is an autoimmune disease that flattens the finger like tentacles that collect the vitamins from the small intestine and can go hand in hand with ME.  I have no idea how long he has suffered or if this could have been avoided if a more sympathetic approach had been followed.

My son was diagnosed with PoTS and because he was put on GET I wonder what effect this had on him. As far as I am aware no Paediatric looks for PoTS (Postural orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome)

Most of all I think Weesley and all his followers should take full responsibility of taking Millions pounds out of research by producing a very bad trial called PACE and protecting it by calling people  who ask for the data as "vexatious". They should apologise for the appalling things they have said about  the people they were supposed to be supporting through their illness. How they have hounded and treated other Doctors and researchers.  As Maureen Hanson put it:
“Furthermore, our detection of a biological abnormality provides further evidence against the ridiculous concept that the disease is psychological in origin.”
Her resent research:
https://microbiomejournal.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.1186/s40168-016-0171-4


The Tymes Trust has given me invaluable information over the last year or so, Jane Colby has tirelessly worked and campaigned to protect children and their families like me. As I was just finishing this story Jane's Blog fell into my FB page, great minds think alike, especially when they stand up in stripysocks!
http://www.methenewplague.net/blog.html

They have a new leaflet to explaining Paediatric ME:

http://www.tymestrust.org/pdfs/mecfsseid.pdf

Researchers like Julia Newman are proving what we have known all along, but still get less notice in the headlines. Prof Julia shows and explains the effects of exercise on ME sufferers.

Standing up for Fatigue - Professor Julia Newton and Professor Jason Ellis


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=auFEYiDrJts

And now Julia has another paper, which proves that the heart and the blood volume are affected
http://openheart.bmj.com/content/3/1/e000381.short