Wednesday 25 October 2023

My Lived Experience of the Covid Epidemic

My Lived Experience of the COVID Epidemic 

Post viral infections are nothing new, so why no data, understanding of the biomedical research or concern over PPE? Why no research into ME/cfs especially now with Long Covid who fall into the PEM and ME diagnosis.

Being a carer of a severely effected young person from the age of 8 who is now 18, I have had to fight to be heard every second of every day. I have had to find how to support and care for my son without proper data or research. I know more about ME and PEM than that of the professionals I meet and yet I am silenced. Mine and millions of others lived experience can tell us so much about post viral disease and the consequences of not giving the proper understanding and treatment. How misinformation and disinformation by professionals, journalists and politicians have impacted in such an egregious way.

Should the Covid Enquiry demand a full enquiry into the history of failure, especially of the PACE trial involvement, which allowed in opinion and bias against the science and evidence of the lived experience of those who have had to live alone with a chronic and devastating post viral disability? We should examine why Sir Mark Walport and others have not taken down the pace trial and other such harmful papers.

The impact on me, my family, and my son of the Covid epidemic is beyond words. First trauma of knowing what was about to happen, the lack of professionals to meet the needs of those left with ME and PEM. I often wrote “my heart fills with shame and tears” because I knew what was to come. The inappropriate research and rehabilitation centres, the false accusations on parent carers like me. The misuse of funds the denial of education and all the trauma of waking up to the next fight against injustice, discrimination, scrutiny and misinformation or disinformation from those we should trust.

If the Inquiry into the status of cfs/ME and research into the causes and treatment, published in 2006 had been followed up with proper long-term data; including autopsy and biomedical research needs to be discussed openly now?  Would we or should we have been in a better place to fight covid deaths, support and save those with Covid damage and Long Covid. If the PACE trial had been thoroughly reviewed by an independent inquiry after the court case, what lessons could have been learnt and what still could be learnt.

The ME community was fighting in October 2021 the biopsychosocial model holding on to the status quo in the ME pathway. This was extraordinary in a pandemic with many coming down with ME and PEM with no symptoms or hospital admissions. Peter Todd was preparing legal aid for a young man to force NICE to follow procedure and release the New Guidelines.

With the Will Quince review now underway into ME, this review will not change the bias or the disregard to those devastated by this pandemic. Without taking down the PACE trial no clear understanding of ME and PEM will be gained. This Governments support to Functional Neurological Disorder introducing IAPT and Medically Unexplained Symptoms with many in the medical profession stating NICE is just a guideline, those that could be saved from long term disability and be able to recover, is going to be taken away from them, as it was with my son 10 years ago.

We need to stop the ability of bias opinion over science, excluding evidence quoting the PACE trial to do so. We need to combine the knowledge of postmortem, data and lived experience to be given the respect so often talked about but not acted upon.

For me and the millions missing this is the story of Covid, the trauma and disregard of the lived experience and to the known medical facts.